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Life

 Well life is boring at the moment. Just work, home & food shopping. The only exciting thing happening in our house is potty training, which seems to be going ok.

My health isn't great yet again. The doctors rechecked my bloods a month ago as I'm waiting for a follow up with gastroenterology but due to covid its been postponed. My results weren't great, haemoglobin levels were extremely low, the doctor said if it was to get any lower I would need a blood transfusion. So they increased the iron tablets that I am supposed to take (still struggle with compliance), rechecked my bloods 2 weeks later and they had increased ever so slightly. I have another blood test later this week to recheck the levels, fingers crossed the levels are better than last time as I would prefer not to have a transfusion.

A few weeks ago we went to my grandparents for tea and when I got there both of my sisters were there. I was expecting one of them to be there with my niece. But I certainly was not expecting the other sister to be there, she's the one that does not speak to me. It kind of threw me and I didn't know what to do, so I just sat down and my little one came running up to me as I had been at work all day so she hadn't seen me. The sister made a quick exit with her little one & boyfriend. If I had know they were going to be there I would have mentally prepared myself and maybe said hello or something, but I was completely thrown off.

So after giving it some thought I decided to send her an email. Basically it just said that I was offering an olive branch, in the hope we could be civil towards each other so that it doesn't make it awkward when we are both around other family members. That was 2 weeks ago and I haven't had a response. So yet again I have tried to reach out to her and had nothing back. I think it's time I give up trying as its clearly getting us nowhere. She is obviously not interested in any kind of relationship with me or my child, which does cause me heartache as I would love to have a relationship with my niece, the same for my sister with my child.

I'm going to have to stop there as I'm getting a little emotional.

5 Years

 This week marks 5 years since I started my pre-op diet and I would never have thought I would be the weight I am now or have a child. The past 5 years has been full of highs and lows but I certainly do not regret having the bypass.

My diet intake still varies. Some days I can only tolerate liquids and soft foods, then other days I feel like I can eat almost normally. I drink peppermint tea after meals which helps settle my stomach. I still get dumping syndrome if I eat foods that are too high in fat and sugar, and I cannot tolerate whole milk at all. I get a lot of dizziness and I'm not sure if that is from the dumping, reactive hypoglycaemia or the severe anaemia that's still under investigation.

Before I fell pregnant I was happy with how my body looked. I reached my goal weight a few months before finding out I was pregnant and was trying to lose another 7-12 pounds so that got put on hold. It's taken me 2 years to get back to my target weight after having our child and I can see a difference in how my stomach looks compared to before the pregnancy. Yes I have loose skin but since having the little one my stomach seems to be more jiggly and not as smooth as it was. As it has taken me so long to loose the pregnancy weight and my weight seems to fluctuate around the same 7lbs, I'm not sure if I want to commit to losing the extra 7-12 pounds I hoped to loose before the pregnancy. It feels like a big commitment and I would be disheartened if I made a concerted effort for the next few months for it not to work. Or maybe I should just bite the bullet and do the 5 Day Pouch Test and see if that will help give me a kick start.

I've seen a few people go keto on the WLS facebook pages that I follow, and it seems to work for them. When I asked my Dietitian she does not advise it for bariatric patients due to its high fat content. Which has left me a little confused as to how others have been allowed to do it.

I had been attending virtual Slimming World sessions but due to my shift patterns I've not been able to attend one for quite a while. Physical groups have now restarted but again I can't get there due to shifts and childcare, as my husband is often leaving for work when I get home from work. My SW consultant has said that head office are allowing us to self weigh until the end of September, so I will continue to send her my weight weekly.

I restarted B12 injections this week and I can tell the difference in my energy levels and mood. The tablets didn't really work for me though it probably didn't help that I'm still struggling with medication compliance.

Still struggling with my back pain which has now spread to my hips and pubic bone. My MSK Practitioner has asked my GP to refer me for a DEXA scan and advised I try pilates. He thinks my pain is more mechanical than anything else but agrees a DEXA scan is a good idea due to malabsorption from the bypass. He sent me a link to some videos on pilates for back pain so I'll have to give them a try. Hopefully the little one and the dog will not be too much of a distraction. He also suggested I try a sacroilliac belt to help support my hips and take some of the pressure off. I have tried it a couple of times but because of where it sits and how my stomach is it gives me a muffin top which is even worse when I'm sat down at work. I'll persevere with it and see how it goes.

I'm crap at this blogging lark

Yet again I have not written anything for quite some time. I get the urge to but I get distracted by my 2 year old and working in healthcare has made me quite anxious and uneasy these past few months, especially as I caught the virus myself.

Our little one has grown up so much this past year. She's walking, running, talking non-stop, very bubbly, I just wish getting her to bed was easier. She has not been going to nursery during the pandemic, which is a shame because she hadn't been going very long when all this started, but is due to go back in September.

My sister that is still not speaking to me has had a baby which I have not seen. I did send them a gift, which I assume was accepted as it hasn't been sent back to me. I'm finding it hard not having anything to do with my new niece and the fact that she's not going to know my little one. I hope that one day my sister lets us have some kind of relationship.

I've managed to keep my weight off, currently trying to lose a bit more as I do not like my mum tum. I had started to attend yoga once a week which I found helped my back pain as well as my mental health. I should probably start doing some at home.

We finally bought a house. The sale completed the week before lockdown happened but due to no heating or hot water and not being able to get anyone in we only managed to move in about 2 weeks ago. The house does need some work but as it's going to be our forever home we are going to do it bit by bit as money allows. As much as I love my parents I am so glad we have our own space again. I do miss seeing them everyday and I'm sure our little one does.

I'm still not compliant with my meds. I did have a spell of remembering to take them but with the move it seemed to slip my mind. Maybe I should get a better dosette box to help me remember to take them. I'm just wary of having it where I can see it incase my little one manages to get hold of it.

Well I suppose that's all for now. Hopefully I'll remember to write again soon.

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