Yet again I have not written anything for quite some time. I get the urge to but I get distracted by my 2 year old and working in healthcare has made me quite anxious and uneasy these past few months, especially as I caught the virus myself.
Our little one has grown up so much this past year. She's walking, running, talking non-stop, very bubbly, I just wish getting her to bed was easier. She has not been going to nursery during the pandemic, which is a shame because she hadn't been going very long when all this started, but is due to go back in September.
My sister that is still not speaking to me has had a baby which I have not seen. I did send them a gift, which I assume was accepted as it hasn't been sent back to me. I'm finding it hard not having anything to do with my new niece and the fact that she's not going to know my little one. I hope that one day my sister lets us have some kind of relationship.
I've managed to keep my weight off, currently trying to lose a bit more as I do not like my mum tum. I had started to attend yoga once a week which I found helped my back pain as well as my mental health. I should probably start doing some at home.
We finally bought a house. The sale completed the week before lockdown happened but due to no heating or hot water and not being able to get anyone in we only managed to move in about 2 weeks ago. The house does need some work but as it's going to be our forever home we are going to do it bit by bit as money allows. As much as I love my parents I am so glad we have our own space again. I do miss seeing them everyday and I'm sure our little one does.
I'm still not compliant with my meds. I did have a spell of remembering to take them but with the move it seemed to slip my mind. Maybe I should get a better dosette box to help me remember to take them. I'm just wary of having it where I can see it incase my little one manages to get hold of it.
Well I suppose that's all for now. Hopefully I'll remember to write again soon.
Friday, 19 June 2020
Wednesday, 11 September 2019
Journey To A Slimmer Me: Ramblings
Journey To A Slimmer Me: Ramblings: So its been a few months since I last wrote anything here. Our little one took her first steps the last week, I'm going to need eyes i...
Journey To A Slimmer Me: Ramblings
Journey To A Slimmer Me: Ramblings: So its been a few months since I last wrote anything here. Our little one took her first steps the last week, I'm going to need eyes i...
Journey To A Slimmer Me: Ramblings
Journey To A Slimmer Me: Ramblings: So its been a few months since I last wrote anything here. Our little one took her first steps the last week, I'm going to need eyes i...
Tuesday, 10 September 2019
Ramblings
So its been a few months since I last wrote anything here.
Our little one took her first steps the last week, I'm going to need eyes in the back of my head. She's 16 months old and it feels like she's always been part of my life and I cannot imagine life without her. Yes some days it's hard, mainly the ones when she decides she doesn't want to go to bed when she is clearly tired but keeps fighting it til she just drops. I love her little giggle and the weird little noises she makes when talking to you and herself. The times she randomly crawls around in circles giggling away to herself make me smile and laugh along with her. She loves books ,just like her mum, when you've finished reading it to her she goes back to the beginning and 'reads' it back to you. Its amazing how she is constantly learning and taking everything in, you don't realise how fast they pick things up til you have your own.
I'm still struggling to lose the pregnancy weight but that's probably because I prioritise the little one. Though that's no excuse really for my non-compliance with my medication. I don't know why I do it but I go through phases when I just don't take any of my meds, well apart the inhalers for my asthma. I know I should take them and that I more than likely won't feel as tired if I did take them regularly but something in me stops me from doing it. I have good intentions, in fact I've got one of those pill sorters, and last week I got it out and filled it up ready for the week. Surprise, surprise I didn't even manage to take a whole days worth of meds. I definitely need to make more of an effort to take them as I don't know if my husband could cope with our little one on his own if anything happened to me.
Gone and got myself feeling all down thinking about that so need to think about something else.
I've been at my new job for nearly 6 months, yay, I am really enjoying being back in Primary Healthcare, I don't even mind the early starts or late finishes. Coming up to the end of my 6 month probation period. Then around October time we will be ready to start the process of arranging a mortgage so we can get our own place. It has been lovely living with my parents for the past 17 months but it will be so nice to have our own place and own space.
Anyway its time for me to go now. Hopefully the little one will be in bed when I get home so I can have a quiet brew before going to bed. Night x
Our little one took her first steps the last week, I'm going to need eyes in the back of my head. She's 16 months old and it feels like she's always been part of my life and I cannot imagine life without her. Yes some days it's hard, mainly the ones when she decides she doesn't want to go to bed when she is clearly tired but keeps fighting it til she just drops. I love her little giggle and the weird little noises she makes when talking to you and herself. The times she randomly crawls around in circles giggling away to herself make me smile and laugh along with her. She loves books ,just like her mum, when you've finished reading it to her she goes back to the beginning and 'reads' it back to you. Its amazing how she is constantly learning and taking everything in, you don't realise how fast they pick things up til you have your own.
I'm still struggling to lose the pregnancy weight but that's probably because I prioritise the little one. Though that's no excuse really for my non-compliance with my medication. I don't know why I do it but I go through phases when I just don't take any of my meds, well apart the inhalers for my asthma. I know I should take them and that I more than likely won't feel as tired if I did take them regularly but something in me stops me from doing it. I have good intentions, in fact I've got one of those pill sorters, and last week I got it out and filled it up ready for the week. Surprise, surprise I didn't even manage to take a whole days worth of meds. I definitely need to make more of an effort to take them as I don't know if my husband could cope with our little one on his own if anything happened to me.
Gone and got myself feeling all down thinking about that so need to think about something else.
I've been at my new job for nearly 6 months, yay, I am really enjoying being back in Primary Healthcare, I don't even mind the early starts or late finishes. Coming up to the end of my 6 month probation period. Then around October time we will be ready to start the process of arranging a mortgage so we can get our own place. It has been lovely living with my parents for the past 17 months but it will be so nice to have our own place and own space.
Anyway its time for me to go now. Hopefully the little one will be in bed when I get home so I can have a quiet brew before going to bed. Night x
Tuesday, 2 July 2019
Update on my life - Oh I had a baby!
Ok so where do I begin.
I got to my goal weight early 2017, turned the dreaded 30, finally had my gallbladder out, had a baby!
So yes I got to my goal weight of 12 stone / 168 pounds in February 2017 in time for my 30th birthday in the May. We went away with family for my birthday weekend to celebrate. A week later I got on the scales at Slimming World (when I was still an active member) and I'd lost 9lbs! I was quite shocked as I'd been drinking, ate out nearly every night and had ice-cream on the way back to our lodge every night and I'd still managed to lose that much weight. So I decided to lower my target to 11 stone / 154 pounds. I never managed to get down to my new target weight, I kept swaying between the same couple of pounds and I couldn't work out why.
In June 2017 I finally had my gallbladder removed, no major complications just and issue with one of the incisions taking longer to heal than the others, during my time off work I had been going to an earlier Slimming World group, with the same consultant, just a daytime session instead of evening. I was nominated for group slimmer of the year. Before the awards night I had gone back to work and swapped back to the evening session just in time for their slimmer of the year awards night. The weekend I'd been to a friend's birthday party. It was a murder mystery night, we had such fun, it was a great night, I'd definitely recommend it. For my part in the murder mystery I had to wear an evening gown, my friend found me one in a charity shop for 50p and it fit perfectly when I tried it on. But on the night I could only just get the zip all the way up. It was as if I'd put a few pounds on but nothing had showed up on the scales. So I was sat at Slimming World listening to the slimmer of the year nominees do their little talks when Hannah stepped up and talked about how if it wasn't for
Slimming World she would not have met her partner and had her little boy the previous year. That's when it dawned on me that my period was late, which wasn't major as having PCOS it wasn't unusual for it to be late, but since losing weight my periods had become somewhat regular. So I decided that the next day I was take a test just for the sake of it, thinking it would be negative as I'd always been told it would never happen naturally due to the severity of my PCOS.
I woke up on the Tuesday morning and while getting ready for work I took a pregnancy test. Just before I left the house I checked it and low and behold there was that little blue line that would change our life.
I was so shocked and couldn't believe it that I didn't tell my husband, I left the house and went straight to the doctors and got a walk in appointment. Luckily it was my GP that I saw and she confirmed the positive result and calmed me down a little as I was in tears. Then I drove to work, luckily by the time I'd gotten to work I had calmed down, I was only a little bit late for work and I had the biggest grin on my face all day long. When I got home from work that night I told my husband the amazing news.
So it's no wonder I couldn't lose the weight to get down to the new target I had set myself, I can also say that I still haven't got down to that weight, or my original target.
I had a fairly uncomplicated pregnancy, just issues with my thyroid levels and finding out the baby was breech three days before we were due to move back to my family home over 90 miles away. Luckily the obstetrician was able to get me booked in to see the midwives for the day after we arrived (Saturday) and I then saw my new obstetrician on the Monday who confirmed the breech position. I was then booked in for a C-section 2 weeks later on Friday 13th April 2018. I went for my pre-op checks on the Thursday and everything was set for the C-section to go ahead the following day. Due to the excitement I didn't get to bed til around 11pm that night. At 1am on Friday 13th April I woke up as thought I was wetting the bed...... nope it was just my waters breaking. I woke my mum and husband up. Rang the hospital and off we set off to the hospital just a few hours earlier than planned. I ended up having an emergency C-section and our little girl was born at 3:19am on Friday 13th April 2018. She obviously wanted to enter the world on her time and no one else's. During the whole pregnancy I only gained 2 stone but I've still got a stubborn 7lbs that I can't seem to shift.
Our little one is now 14 months old and she's the best thing that has ever happened to us. Everyone tells you how quickly they grow but you don't realise just how fast til you've got your own little one. It feels like only yesterday by mum was driving me through to the hospital sat on a bin liner and beach towel.
During my pregnancy one of my sisters and I fell out. I don't want to go into the ins and outs of it on here. But what I do want to say is that if you are reading this I have forgiven, forgotten and regret that we haven't been able to reconcile. I want you to know that I think of you most days and it hurts me so much that we don't have any kind of relationship anymore and even more that you don't have one with your niece. I love you and hope that one day we can carve out a new relationship x
I got to my goal weight early 2017, turned the dreaded 30, finally had my gallbladder out, had a baby!
So yes I got to my goal weight of 12 stone / 168 pounds in February 2017 in time for my 30th birthday in the May. We went away with family for my birthday weekend to celebrate. A week later I got on the scales at Slimming World (when I was still an active member) and I'd lost 9lbs! I was quite shocked as I'd been drinking, ate out nearly every night and had ice-cream on the way back to our lodge every night and I'd still managed to lose that much weight. So I decided to lower my target to 11 stone / 154 pounds. I never managed to get down to my new target weight, I kept swaying between the same couple of pounds and I couldn't work out why.
In June 2017 I finally had my gallbladder removed, no major complications just and issue with one of the incisions taking longer to heal than the others, during my time off work I had been going to an earlier Slimming World group, with the same consultant, just a daytime session instead of evening. I was nominated for group slimmer of the year. Before the awards night I had gone back to work and swapped back to the evening session just in time for their slimmer of the year awards night. The weekend I'd been to a friend's birthday party. It was a murder mystery night, we had such fun, it was a great night, I'd definitely recommend it. For my part in the murder mystery I had to wear an evening gown, my friend found me one in a charity shop for 50p and it fit perfectly when I tried it on. But on the night I could only just get the zip all the way up. It was as if I'd put a few pounds on but nothing had showed up on the scales. So I was sat at Slimming World listening to the slimmer of the year nominees do their little talks when Hannah stepped up and talked about how if it wasn't for
Slimming World she would not have met her partner and had her little boy the previous year. That's when it dawned on me that my period was late, which wasn't major as having PCOS it wasn't unusual for it to be late, but since losing weight my periods had become somewhat regular. So I decided that the next day I was take a test just for the sake of it, thinking it would be negative as I'd always been told it would never happen naturally due to the severity of my PCOS.
I woke up on the Tuesday morning and while getting ready for work I took a pregnancy test. Just before I left the house I checked it and low and behold there was that little blue line that would change our life.
I was so shocked and couldn't believe it that I didn't tell my husband, I left the house and went straight to the doctors and got a walk in appointment. Luckily it was my GP that I saw and she confirmed the positive result and calmed me down a little as I was in tears. Then I drove to work, luckily by the time I'd gotten to work I had calmed down, I was only a little bit late for work and I had the biggest grin on my face all day long. When I got home from work that night I told my husband the amazing news.
So it's no wonder I couldn't lose the weight to get down to the new target I had set myself, I can also say that I still haven't got down to that weight, or my original target.
I had a fairly uncomplicated pregnancy, just issues with my thyroid levels and finding out the baby was breech three days before we were due to move back to my family home over 90 miles away. Luckily the obstetrician was able to get me booked in to see the midwives for the day after we arrived (Saturday) and I then saw my new obstetrician on the Monday who confirmed the breech position. I was then booked in for a C-section 2 weeks later on Friday 13th April 2018. I went for my pre-op checks on the Thursday and everything was set for the C-section to go ahead the following day. Due to the excitement I didn't get to bed til around 11pm that night. At 1am on Friday 13th April I woke up as thought I was wetting the bed...... nope it was just my waters breaking. I woke my mum and husband up. Rang the hospital and off we set off to the hospital just a few hours earlier than planned. I ended up having an emergency C-section and our little girl was born at 3:19am on Friday 13th April 2018. She obviously wanted to enter the world on her time and no one else's. During the whole pregnancy I only gained 2 stone but I've still got a stubborn 7lbs that I can't seem to shift.
Our little one is now 14 months old and she's the best thing that has ever happened to us. Everyone tells you how quickly they grow but you don't realise just how fast til you've got your own little one. It feels like only yesterday by mum was driving me through to the hospital sat on a bin liner and beach towel.
During my pregnancy one of my sisters and I fell out. I don't want to go into the ins and outs of it on here. But what I do want to say is that if you are reading this I have forgiven, forgotten and regret that we haven't been able to reconcile. I want you to know that I think of you most days and it hurts me so much that we don't have any kind of relationship anymore and even more that you don't have one with your niece. I love you and hope that one day we can carve out a new relationship x
Thursday, 18 August 2016
Weight Loss & MRI
I am now almost a year post op and I am proud of how far I have come in that time. Still cannot believe how much weight I have lost. Back in August last year I was wearing a size 28 and now currently wearing a size 16. Though I did buy a size 14 skirt a few weeks ago that would not fit at all and I tried it on the other day and it fit perfectly. My current goal weight is 168lbs / 12st which is exactly half of what I used to weigh and I've only got another 12.5lbs to lose. Recently I've been thinking I might lose a little more but I'll make a decision on that once I get to my current goal.
I have been struggling recently due to having gallstones. During the ultrasound to confirm the gallstones they found a cyst on my liver so I had to have an MRI scan a few weeks ago. I have not yet had the results of the MRI but I got a call from the Bariatric Nurse earlier this week to say that they think it is just a cyst but they need me to have another MRI with a different contrast dye to confirm this. Even though the Nurse said they think it is nothing untoward and this second scan is just to confirm it I am now convinced the second scan is because it is something sinister. Fair to say I am worrying and my low mood is starting to creep back in. I've also been going dizzy nearly everyday. My GP has checked my blood pressure and I have checked it myself a couple of times and it is always normal. So the only other thing it could be is delayed dumping. I'm going to keep an eye on it and try to work out what is causing it. I'm due to see the consultant in a couple of weeks to discuss my MRI and I plan on mentioning it to them as well.
On a happier note thanks to all the weight I have lost I am now able to do so much more. I can go on walks without needing to use my inhaler or worry whether there will be anywhere for me to sit when I need a break. I used to stay indoors most of the time, only venturing out if I absolutely had to. Now my husband and I go into town most weekends or we will go to a local park for a walk. I find it easier to eat in public as I no longer think people are looking at me while eating. I used to hate having my photo taken and would purposely hid behind others in group shots or turn away if the camera was pointed at me. Don't get me wrong I'm still not entirely keen on having my picture taken. Here are a few I've taken over the last couple of months.
Current Weight
|
Difference
| ||
| 180.5lbs / 12st 12.5lbs | |||
| Starting Weight |
324lbs / 23st 2lbs
| 143.5lbs / 10st 3.5lbs | |
| Highest Weight |
336lbs / 24st
| 155.5lbs / 11st 1.5lbs | |
| Surgery Weight | 297.6lbs / 21st 3lbs | 116.5lbs / 8st 4.5lbs | |
July 2016 August 2015
I have been struggling recently due to having gallstones. During the ultrasound to confirm the gallstones they found a cyst on my liver so I had to have an MRI scan a few weeks ago. I have not yet had the results of the MRI but I got a call from the Bariatric Nurse earlier this week to say that they think it is just a cyst but they need me to have another MRI with a different contrast dye to confirm this. Even though the Nurse said they think it is nothing untoward and this second scan is just to confirm it I am now convinced the second scan is because it is something sinister. Fair to say I am worrying and my low mood is starting to creep back in. I've also been going dizzy nearly everyday. My GP has checked my blood pressure and I have checked it myself a couple of times and it is always normal. So the only other thing it could be is delayed dumping. I'm going to keep an eye on it and try to work out what is causing it. I'm due to see the consultant in a couple of weeks to discuss my MRI and I plan on mentioning it to them as well.
On a happier note thanks to all the weight I have lost I am now able to do so much more. I can go on walks without needing to use my inhaler or worry whether there will be anywhere for me to sit when I need a break. I used to stay indoors most of the time, only venturing out if I absolutely had to. Now my husband and I go into town most weekends or we will go to a local park for a walk. I find it easier to eat in public as I no longer think people are looking at me while eating. I used to hate having my photo taken and would purposely hid behind others in group shots or turn away if the camera was pointed at me. Don't get me wrong I'm still not entirely keen on having my picture taken. Here are a few I've taken over the last couple of months.
I recently got new glasses and had my hair cut and coloured
Husband and I on Withernsea seafront
My sister Laura and I
Enjoying my first alcoholic drink since the surgery
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